Time is flying by....

It has been so long since I have written anything other than doctors appointments and notes to my mediciad worker. Time is just flying by and the boys are getting so big. We have worked out a semi schedule. I try and stay up at night while my mom and Andy sleep, then my mom usually takes over from 7am and I wake up around 2pm. I feel pretty lucky having this schedule since it means I get a lot more sleep than a lot of other new parents. My mother is taking on a very big load with these babies, she hardly sleeps and when she does I can hear her talking about them. I go to school on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays in the morning so on those days the schedule changes a bit.
On Jan. 20th 2010 we took the boys to be circumsized. We were taken to the holding room where they answered our questions, no they do not numb the area, they are not given any medication at all. They weighed and measured them, Dawson is 19 inches 8 pounds and 9 ounces, Phillip is 20 inches 8 pounds 8 ounces. Dawson has surpassed Phillip in weight for the first time, it was kind of surprising. Then we went into the surgery room. Phillip went first, his arms and legs were strapped down to this plastic tray in the shape of a baby body. I held his hand and watched his face become beat red while they did the procedure, and eventually he was screaming. I was on the brink of tears and then became really hot and thought for a moment I might puke. Dawson was next, I decided not to watch a second time but made my mom promise to hold his hand while they did it. After it was over they drank thier bottles and we askd the doc to look in thier ears just to make sure they were ok. She didn't tell us she would bill us seperatly $226.00 each, the circumsition cost $300.00 each and mediciad still hasn't returned an of my letters or calls. When I think about the health care situation in this ountry it really hits home and angers me to tears sometimes.
The bandages have come off and they are doing great. The first couple of days you could tell they were in pain and I just felt sorry for them. They are getting so strong. Phillip rolled over on Jan. 22, 2010, and of course he was on the couch and scared us to death. Dawson was laying on the couch and almost pushed himself over the edge. They have started to really follow us around the room with thier eyes and turn thier heads when we are talking to them. It is an awesome feeling when they smile even though you know it has nothing to do with you.
We have had so many guest. It feels so good to know people will take time out of thier life to come and see us and the babies. It seems that women love to talk about thier birth experience and what it was like for them, it's crazy but I love hearig these stories. Before my own birthing experience I really coudn't relate, but now I feel these stories are very interesting and I understand more than ever before. Right now Sarah Robinson is here with us visiting. She is holding both the boys at this very moment giving me the opportunity to write this blog. She told me she was saving for a mexico trip but had to come visit these boys, she is an awesome friend and I really love her! I told her there wouldn't be much going anywhere, and so far we haven't gone anywhere or done anything! She has cooked all the meals and been so so helpful!
Twins are a lot of hard work and I know we would really struggle without the help of my mother. I know it sounds crazy but Andy has never looked better than when he is making bottles! I love my famiy so much and I can't wait to see what the boys will do next! Thank you to everyone for your support and know that we appreciate it all!

Photo time!

So so blessed!

It is 3:01am and I cannot sleep, it is the best I have felt all day and the first time the boys have been able to sleep for more than a 30 minute interval. I did the dishes which I now do about 4 times a day. I cannot believe how much they have grown. Phillip doesn't fit into the sleepers he used to, he is too long for them. He is so much longer than Dawson when I am burping him he kind of flops around with his long legs dangling about. Dawson is also starting to fit snugly into his sleepers that used to be so long on him. They are so different now it is very easy to tell them apart, I even know who's crying when I hear it. I think now that having one baby would be a piece of cake. Twins are so much work. I believe we are really lucky, yet at times I feel very frustrated and I wonder how anyone with children get anything done. Dawson and Phillip are on the same eating schedule and I have only had to feed them at the same time by myself once and it really is hard. You have to prop one baby up and just pray they will be comfortable eating like that, while you hold the bottle in one's mouth with one hand and the other bottle in the other hand. Then burping is a challenge you kind of prop the bottle up and hope the other baby doesn't go crazy.

On new year's eve I went into the hospital because my c-section incision was leaking. We were told all kinds of horrible wrong information. Andy was with me the entire time and I was so grateful, the doctors were telling us bad news and it ended up all wrong and I was much better off than they thought. My mom was alone with the babies for almost two days straight! I really cannot thank her enough and tell her how much it meant to me that she did that for me and my family. She was rescued by my co-worker Jennifer, who later called in Jackie, our personal twins expert. It was hard for me to be away from my babies for so long. It seemed I just got them and now I couldn't be with them and I felt helpless. Here are these wonderful friends and my mom taking care of my babies and I can't even help. I also had to except the fact we needed help and we had to rely on my friends like never before. Jennifer was a godsend. She came over stayed until she had to work, then came back over. She also came the next day. I couldn't believe the kindness I experienced from my co-workers. Becci and her husband Rick came to the hospital and prayed for me, which really meant allot, and comforted me so much. Kam Yee and Matt came and visited and brought some cheery flowers. My mom got a break and was able to come for a night. I think she needed the rest really badly, she crawled in the bed with me and was out like a light! My wonderful husband was by my side as much as he could be, and I don't know how he stood it. He would just sit by my side while I was in and out of sleep from the pain medication. I would wake up and he would be looking at me or holding my hand, I felt like the most lucky person in the world to have such a wonderful person in my life. I needed him more than ever and he was right there, that feeling is indescribable. I got to leave the hospital after 5 days and well I have less faith than ever before in the medical profession. I am grateful for nurses and scared of doctors!

Overall I feel very blessed and loved! Dawson and Phillip have all ready brought so much into my life and made me come to realizations that I had never experienced. I am in love with my babies and so so lucky to have my mom and Andy!

December 22, 2009

Our lives changed forever that morning at 8:02 am Dawson Lee made his way into this world and out of my womb kicking and screaming. The nurse said he grabbed a tool she was using. It was only two minutes later at 8:04 am that Phillip Charles was dragged out of his cozy pocket in an inconvenient place at the top of my womb and he grabbed his own umbilical cord.

The surgery had been planned on contingencies that all was going well for at least a month. "Twins are usually delivered this way" Dr. Litt explained multiple times, at our multiple OBGYN visits. I was most nervous about the epidural or spinal in my case. Though I should have been scared of the IV, catheter, and inevitable constipation. Andy, my mom and I arrived at the hospital with our bags at 5:30am, we began filling out paper work and then I was hooked up to an IV and was told I had to have two bags of fluid get pumped through me before going under the knife. I was put in a surgery holding room where only one person can be with me at a time. Andy of course stayed with me and for a quick few minutes my mom switched him places. It is nice to have the people who love you around when you are scared, it makes it seem in some way you are protected because you know they won't let anything bad happen to you. So Andy got suited up in his surgery gear and escorted me into the surgery room. They did the spinal and my waist went numb then they strapped me down to the operating table, shaped like a cross. The anesthesiologist asked how I was doing, I replied "good," he said "that is good since you have been cut open for about two minutes." I had no idea. Andy was by my side holding my hand. He stood up to look over the blue curtain that was blocking my view. I couldn't see his mouth or facial expressions because of the mask he had to wear, but his eyes said it all. His eyes were alive with rapid movements almost exploding from their sockets. He said "I see a foot." About ten seconds later i heard the crying, and in that moment the world changed.

The moment I heard Dawson cry I said that is my son! I wanted to hug everyone in the delivery room I thanked them for what they were doing, I couldn't have been more grateful. My eyes swelled up and I had that "tears of joy moment" and then when Philip made his way out screaming I had that moment all over again except this time it was making me bawl.

December 22, 2009 our lives where changed by the arrival of our sons, our twin boys, that we had been anticipating for so long. Yes it is true, I now have a different meaning of the word love. It means something more connected to the world, it means being grateful for life, I think love is being a parent. This blog is about our sons, our twins, their adventures and milestones, the Great Unstoppable Biehns!